6.13.2002

another boring day at home... yeah!!! summer nights are great but sometimes the days just really suck! I fought with another really good friend last night about the same mistake. He said that he wasn't going to give me pity, but he didn't understand that i don't want pity. I just want some one to talk to about everything without being judged. Maybe that is too much to ask.

the previous question has been retracted until further notice because in no way was it meant to be humorous or remotely interesting. To you Pete, I apologize. <>

WHO IS ROSY????

you know...liars suck, but this one i can't help but love. Then, there are all the good guys who are wonderful, but just don't give me that feeling of complete helplessness. Obviously, I am seriously screwed up~

6.12.2002

Everything is gravy with everybody... but now to fix my life...

it takes a true friend to tell you when they find you ugly (ummm...yah...thanks for that!) and a even better friend to tell you when you are screwing up. I have definently been the wild child lately, and let's face it... it isn't very appealing on me, but from the sounds of it nothing is appealing on me. Anyways, in the process of screwing up, I have been hurting a VERY CLOSE friend who has never been anything but helpful and kind. DAMN ME! I just was talking about insensitivity... how could i be so stupid. To everyone who I have hurt... I am truly sorry! and to randy... *ouch*!

6.11.2002

A true friend makes you laugh and smile when times are bad. Thank you to all the GOOD friends out there.
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I have come to a conclusion... it isn't me... it isn't them... it is just the world! then after that deduction, I decided that the world is completely screwed up! thank you for your time!

REJECTED! ouch* that hurt! I sure you all know the feeling. when you are just shut down by some one you were really looking forward to talking to. The worst part about it is that I try to be equally harsh back, but I fail miserablely. Maybe I am just overlooking the situation... the opposite sex can't help that they mess up every once in awhile. OK... more than once in awhile, but why? in the words of a friend...
zwingly2004: Do you care to comment on why guys are so insensitive at times?
Pete8425: probably cause of P.M.S.
WHY!?!

6.10.2002

HELP!!!!

well... since my last entry I was told that I am too mushy and complex, but in reality everyone is complex. I have been having a problem with the opposite sex lately. After last night I felt that everything would be alright, but now I have another problem. How is it that I always end up hurting some one? Is it all my fault? Yes, it probably is, but I can't help it. G's! I am just so confused!

6.09.2002

You can do something to get even, but eventually it will backfire. I learned that tonight. Some things, no matter how deserved, can hurt twice as bad as the actual thing done which made you angry to begin with. Fortunately for me, my wise use of words, that came from the bottom of my heart, helped to heal the wound in which I caused. Piece by piece of a broken heart was repaired word by word. The question I need to ask myself is... were all the words used wisely? did he truly understand? are his intentions true? Sadly, I can't tell if they are or not. However, one thing is true... my heart flutters when I am near him, and by the mere touch of his hands, my stomach turns in joy. I haven't felt anything like this before. I don't want to be hurt. Yet, I don't want to be alone either.

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