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1.04.2005
It's been a while since I last wrote to my safest secret holder. Ever since I got home I haven't had access online, but now that I do I am going to take full advantage of it...
When I was leaving McKendree, I had no idea what the future held for me. I was scared, alone, and vunerable. For the first week or two, I felt relieved to be at home in my comfort zone, but my parents were almost unbearable. I saw the disappointment in their eyes and dealt with the ridicule from my mother without any response. It broke my heart to know that I had chipped away at their soul, heart, pride. How could I ever fix it now?
My friends were wonderful through it all, providing a shoulder on which I could lean on when times seemed rough. It felt great to finally be able to know that these friends wouldn't betray me like my last two attempts had. I will never actually know what went wrong in those relationships. Apparently, I was the one to blame. Oh well, I'm over it now and nothing can hold me back.
On Saturday, I start classes again and I am really looking forward to it. Just to get back into a pattern is going to be great...and now that school is out of the way, time to focus on other important things: a job, partying, and guys. The three essentials in my life.
Care Bear @ 5:58 PM | comment
cmharrison@mckendree.edu
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