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3.25.2004
I was thinking about my life the other day and a revelation occured to me...I am a complete coward. I never stand up for myself and often I can't tell anyone NO! Sometimes I look at these people who have all the confidence in the world. They can do anything, say anything, or be around anyone. The whole idea that I am a coward just sort of enveloped me and I became depressed. I questioned myself all day and all night. "Why can't I just for once stand up for myself?" Then, the inevitable happened. I was faced with a situation that left me with a decision. I could a.) just comply with my mother's or b.) give her the big hell no. I sat and time ticked slowly by. All eyes were on me, waiting for my reply. And then it happened...I told my mother no. She was shocked. A giant pressure rose from my shoulders, and I felt more respect for myself immediately. After all, why can't I stand up for something I believe. Now, I am still complying, but I can say that it is only a matter of time.
Care Bear @ 8:26 PM | comment
cmharrison@mckendree.edu
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