8.10.2002

i just finished scrubbing the kitchen floor. i mean hard labor consisting of getting on my hands and knees and washing....the things i do for a night out!

8.09.2002

Tonight was a lot of fun...i always have fun whenever i am with lexi and jessica. Adam leaves tomorrow morning for his car show, but the neon in the back of his car is going out...i thought it was funny, but when me and jess laughed Matt got pissed. G's! we were just joking around! i think i am going to stay out at lexi's tomorrow night! guarenteed to be a good time. Since everyone has been asking for something to read...i am going to work on a new "work of art"! haha! yah right! One of my friends (the doctor) is having a lot of problems lately. don't worry they will work out! Just remember your own advice b/c you give some damn good advice. Later Alligator!

In a conversation last night, I was told that I was a good writer. Here are his exact words...
Adam says:
i wanna be poetic like u....your great
Carrie says:
wadda ya mean?
Adam says:
your so freakin good with words

To all my fans (friends), you guys are my inspiration!

8.08.2002

Summer Of 2002
Hangin' out. Ridin' in cars. Pool parties. Playin' guitars. The get up lates. The first dates. The county fair. The growing hair. The late shows. The lawn mows. The concert shows. The emotional lows. The emotional highs. The sad goodbyes. I won't soon forget you.
Summer of 2002.

by jordan dewilde

Thanks Doctor Lacey! I feel completely recovered...except for one thing...

grrrr....Adam's my baby! love ya!

I refuse to participate in an immature bashing contest. If you don't like my blogger...don't read it! If you are going to be a controversial bitch about everything i say...you don't have to look at this! What means everything to somebody may seem trivial to you, but just think...i feel the same way about your mini-skirt bullshit! In my opinion, I have done nothing wrong...so i am not going get upset by you. Also in my opinion, I have nothing to apologize for. It is definently the opposite. Thank you to everyone, and have a good night!

8.07.2002

This explains my night well...

HYEROLLER82086: hello
zwingly2004: whatchoo doing?
HYEROLLER82086: just got home
HYEROLLER82086: u?
zwingly2004: me too...to a bitching family b/c i got home at ten
zwingly2004: but it was jessica's fault
HYEROLLER82086: y?
zwingly2004: she left with milby to go get food at around 9:10 i called 2 times and asked her to come back, but she was in the park
zwingly2004: well...she finally came back at 9:50
zwingly2004: i would have just left but she had my keys
zwingly2004: now i am pissed
zwingly2004: b/c i called and asked her to come back twice and then on the third time she didn't answer
zwingly2004: how was the tourny?
HYEROLLER82086: fine
HYEROLLER82086: it was fun
HYEROLLER82086: why did she have your keys?
zwingly2004: b/c i set them in her car
zwingly2004: i told her that she didn't have to permentally come back
zwingly2004: just to give me my keys
HYEROLLER82086: oh
zwingly2004: yah

Overall it was a shasty night... I tried calling adam, but didn't answer. BIG FRIGGIN SURPRISE!!!

CHANGES!!!!!!!!!!

Jess, Lexi, and I all stayed at Jess's last night. before that we all went out. It was rather crazy uptown for only being a tuesday. Lee charged the battery in his PA system and Bryan was throwing out hilarious insults. Plus...I got to participate in a car show with adam, matt, and aaron. Originally we were suppose to go to the gas station, but some how we ended up stopping at caleb's house, where i convinced adam to let me sit in front. I definently owe him. I also participated in a smoke show/contest between Bryan and Bobby. Bobby took me to McDonald's and when we got back on the square, they smoked each other....haha...sorry couldn't help myself. Then to top off the night...i used some of my pickup lines on a certain some one (not adam). Here is the ironic part...they actually worked and i was treated to a hug before i left. AWWWW!!

8.05.2002

Adam just stopped by because he wanted to show me his new haircut. It looks dead sexy! haha! He wanted me to devote an entry to nothing but him b/c lately the only time i have talked about him...it has been bad. I might be mistaken...but i think that he found my pickup lines funny. Guess what everyone, i found out today that i was a possession. not just any possession...adam's possession. I know that women's lib happened in the seventies, so i don't really know how to feel about his comment. Flattered? Scared? Offended? that got me thinking...why does adam need another possession? He already has everything...as soon as he answers me that question i will know how to feel. So, a word to the wise (adam), choose your words carefully...for they could be you last! Oh yah...Jimmy and Kelsey are too funny...walking the dog. I really don't see why you think she is so stereotypical. I like stereotypical! Then again, what are you? My cousin asked me yesterday why i put up with Adam's crap... when asked what the hell she was talking about, she responded by saying...nevermind. i think that is inspiration for a new poem... more on that later! i just get hurt and offended so easily. That has become more and more apparent recently. he was suppose to call, but guess not! you owe me adam b/c i betted you wouldn't. HAHA! i win!

Sounds like everyone can!

Can we say pity party!?

In total, I have cried six times in the last hour and a half... the world as i know it is shattering beneath me. The only even remotely guarenteeable is the fact that tomorrow will begin a new day full of challenges, memories, and tears. Why does everything have to be so complicated? Life used to be familiar and fickle. However, with recent events, the fickle aspect is becoming more and more unwanted with passing minutes. One thing I do have to look forward to is the fact that no matter how down i get i will always have some one to cheer me up...like lacey, dave, and michelle. I know everyone gets disappointed by me at times, but tonight some one told me... "you had so much going for you...". How is that suppose to make me feel...well, it made me cry! If you can imagine that!

8.04.2002

today i rolled outta bed 15 minutes before i was suppose to be at the Country Club for the Tornado Open. Needless to say, i was in a hurry! then, i got to deal with preppy golfers all day. Afterwards, a bunch of us went and swam at aimee's. it was a blast! I am kinda upset though b/c some of my close friends i haven't really talked to in two days...they are just too busy... *tear*

ME in a BOWL

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