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11.30.2002 At first, I was angry...understandable. then, I was in denial...of course. now, I am upset...really upset. I am sorry if I get on your nerves and I am sorry that you have no trust, but you know what...I am also sick of apologizing. That is all I ever do to anyone anymore. You guys say stuff that hurts my feelings...I told shandra about it and she tried to stop. I realize that you are just joking, but sometimes I just can't take it anymore. I hold you in the highest regards to any one of my friends so it really hurts when you can't or won't talk to me. I would call and tak to you, but i don't know your number and although i asked you didn't give it to me. Now I know why...because i get on your nerves. I jhave this lump in my throat that just won't go away. everyone knows the one I am talking about...when you are about to cry but aren't going to. oh well...i suppose you will read this and get pissed which is all I need right now, but i hope you take it the right way and maybe decide to talk.
11.28.2002 The entire family is here and i am about to scream. mom is bugging the hell out of me and eric keeps harassing me. I'm uncomfortably stuffed full of food, and I can't seem to find a get away. Typical thanksgiving. hope yours is less eventful
11.24.2002 I have the worst luck with everything. Tonight i was really bored so my mom said i could take the van and go out for a little while. I tried to get a hold of Lacey, but she already had plans of going to the movies. Later I found out that her, shandra and aaron were all going, or at least that is what aimee said.I stopped by Shandra, but she was gone.Then I went to talk to aimee and stayed for just a few minutes. I drove around by myself all night and was basically bored out of my mind, but it beat being bored at home. I wanted to see Kyle, but i never got the chance. Oh well. On my way home, (after going to bigfoot, arby's, the bowling alley, brittni's like 3 times, and just riding around) I decided to stop and get a movie. I find what I am looking for and I go up to pay for it. Well, when i get up there, I get carded because that is what my account said to do. Adam knew who I was, but he still had to check my I.D. Stupid me didn't have any on me so he just let it slide. I pay and go out to start the van. It won't start...instead, it just whines. Then after I tried three or four times, it would just click. I was so pissed. Just my luck though, Josh Towal was at the video store whenever I was, so I flagged him down to ask for a phone. Just my luck, he didn't have one. So instead, he offered my a ride to my house, which I accepted although knowing Josh i seriously doubted his driving skills. I managed to make it home in one piece, but who knows what could have happened. I walk in the door and am scared stiff because I don't want to have to tell my mom. Eventually i spit it out and we go back to the video store. She tried to start it, but turns out the battery is dead (or at least they think). I have decided that i am not going to drive for the rest of my life because it always turns out for the worst. Milby just called. He wanted to stop by but i am sure my mom would really go for that. She hates him. Don't ask me why. She just does. The fact that he is from morrisonville is a big deal, plus the fact that he dated Jessica. I just can't win. And she wonders why I am depressed! GEEZ!
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ME in a BOWL In this tiny space, I am suppose to tell you about myself; I can't, for you wouldn't even begin to understand the simple complexity of my life. RaBId pASt 06/09/2002 - 06/16/2002 HyperLInk lIFE RaNDom SnaPs here IniTiaL FeAr sEConDarY CoNFusION |