4.25.2003

okay...so my mom thinks that I have absolutely no friends left. I have plenty of friends. She bitches about how I don't have the same friends that I had in 6th and 7th or even 8th grade. Hello? people change...things change...interests change. An old friend came over to talk last night and now Juli is pissed because all of a sudden I am repeating history. She says that eventually this guy and I will become more, but trust me it isn't going to happen. We are too good of friends. Hell, I had to help him or else things could have gotten difficult. I like talking to people...helping people. She thinks that when he called and asked to walk over that something was going on between us. Plus she keeps lecturing about how I have no friends...she doesn't meet have of my friends b/c I am afraid that she will judge them and then be pissy whenever I bring them over. I just can't win...she says that she knows what i am thinking and feeling...how is that possible? She won't listen...that is one thing I am good at...i listen, analyze and help...she just lectures. Well, I'm not going to stop talking to this person because they need my help.

4.23.2003

monkeys...monkeys everywhere, but not a drop to drink.

Yesterday I woke up one year older. So far, I don't really feel any older, but the first night that I get to stay out it will sink in. I celebrated with Shandra and Aimee. Monday morning, we all hauled ourselves out of bed and went to Lebanon to see McKendree's campus. It was really beautiful. On the way home, Shandra and I got mad at each other because I got make up on her shirt. So to make it all better, I gave her my clothes. There we are driving down the highway, stripping in the back of Debbie's car, and changing clothes. When we got back into town, we stopped at the bowling alley and my mom was sitting there with a cake. Maggie showed up so all of us went to eat chinese. We weren't the only ones craving chinese; in the restaurant was Matt Carlen, Brian Conrad, and Justin Litz. It was really weird because only three years ago matt was giving me a diamond ring for my birthday. How the years go by. It made me think of how much i really have changed and grown. Well, we gorged on food, went back to my place, and then went out again. The night out was rather uneventful, so when we got home, we made some fun for ourselves with a little pizza. Overall it was a wonderful birthday.

Today was the day that will decide the rest of my future. All the juniors took their ACT's. At least we filled in the blanks. It was a damn hard test and I am just going to leave it at that.

ME in a BOWL

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