10.19.2002

the highlight of my friday night was talking to a guy who is two hours away...wow. Actually, I was still upset about the events of my night until i talked to you... yes petey, you once again cheered me up...i don't know how you do it, but for some reason you make everything seem better. maybe it is your '"forget those people'" attitude, or your reasoning. Better yet, maybe it is just nice to have a conversation with some one who i define as normal. My friends are great b/c they are all different in their own ways...abnormal if you will...i love that about them, but you aren't crazy, don't do stupid things, and are a sweety. Petey, you bring a semblance to my crazy world that i love.

second...never first b/c so many people are just more important than me.Maybe I am being a drama queen, but the thing is...you should CARE if I am...but oh well. I am use to it by now.

10.17.2002

Lacey and I had a wonderful adventure the other day. Okay...maybe it wasn't wonderful, but it was interesting.
*It all started... with the relieving note from Carole telling Lacey that she wouldn't be home. As normal teenagers, we made plans. All I can say is wow lacey...I must say I have never thrown up in my front yard (nor would I want to), but you can add it to your list of experiences. Maybe next time you will know when to quit, damn caffeine addict. Although neither of us had our homework done, we decided that sleep was more important. Before we went to bed though, we made sure that every alarm clock in the house was set. Knowing our luck, we thought, something would go wrong and we would be late for school. Better safe than sorry.
*The next morning... we woke up on time and very smoothly went through the usual pre-school ritual. As we pulled out onto the highway everything was great...we left on time, had a great night, and couldn't wait to tell everyone about it. We're laughing and singing, just joking around...until the fatal words from lacey came as we were rolling down a hill..."Uh Oh!" Yep, you guessed it...we had run out of gas. Well, lacey didn't want to play damsels in distress, so we began to walk... Don't ask me what we were thinking because we knew we weren't going to make it to Taylorville in time, but nevertheless we walked. Actually, we had landed ourselves somewhere between palmer and Taylorville, so there was no hope in either direction. So many people drove by, but none stopped. At first, we were confused because come on...you see two attractive teens walking in the morning alone a major highway and you don't stop? Finally, we figured the smiles we had plastered on our faced didn't reflect our distress. Finally, a woman stopped and let us use her cell phone. Carol came to get us and all this time, all Lacey and I could do was laugh...insane.

10.15.2002

Have you ever noticed how people just don't care. It isn't all people, just the majority. I could be walking down the street is some foreign country, being attacked, and people would not even think to help me. That is the problem with the world...people just don't care. I don't know how I would solve this problem, but something needs to be done. The fact that I am an American wouldn't help the matter. For an understandable reason, people across the world hate us. We, as Americans, see it as our business to become involved in everything. If I could really change something, I would make it so people did not hate others. In reality, we are all the same. No better. No worse. However, for some reason, Americans and other nationalities have been brainwashed by their government to think they are better than others. These thoughts lead to nothing but hatred and hatred leads to war. War is a solution to everything anymore. Everything in the world could change. I can't pick just one subject because there are so many that have room for improvement. Having patriotism is great, but we need to respect others patriotism too. There is more to the world than what is going on in the United States of America.

If you are wondering what brought me to write about this it is an assignment for creative writing. For some reason, I have more inspiration on here.

10.14.2002

I've been sick all day. Have you ever had that feeling when your sick that just makes you long for the way things were before you were sick? For instance, right now I am trying to think of what it felt like to not be sick or to be able to breathe out my nose. However, odds are, when i do get better I won't realize how lucky I am to not be sick. This little theory I had reinforces the non-stopping theme of my life. You never know what you have until you lose it. I know...I know...by now you are sick of hearing about my losses and realizations, but that's what being a teen is all about...realizing how life is and what you can do to make it work for you.

Lacey finally got her car. Congrats Girl!!! We'll plan something soon. Wow! it seems weird to think that we are getting our own cars. I remember what it was like before we "grew up." We walked everywhere or relied on our parents to cart us around. I'll never forget the license lecture my mom gave me (you know the one)..."getting a license is a privledge not a requirement... with this license bring freedoms you wouldn't imagine...a car is a weapon." Yep, I remember it like it was yesterday. For most of my friends, I remember the day they got their license. For Lacey, it was preceded by a killer bash full of "ambulances." For me, the after-events where unforgettable. Ahhh...memories. Surely we will have tons more, but for now I am happy with the ones I have.

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