10.23.2002

I am so mad....actually, mad doesn't describe how I feel right now. It is more a mixture of anger, sadness, and confusion. I just don't want to anymore is a pretty shasty excuse. I wouldn't be that upset had she called me earlier, or if she told me she didn't want to to begin with. Just the fact that I got ready and waited and then found out she wasn't coming... now, I am waiting for lacey to come over b/c we are going to talk. I love how she is always there when I need something. Never late...never forgets to call...never is too busy...never just doesn't want to anymore.

what to say...

I am preparing myself for the late nights of a four day weekend. I also got my grades today...all will be happy to know that I am not grounded. Over the last few weeks I have gotten over something I never thought I could. At first I was going to do everything possible to get what I wanted, but now I just see it as a gain. It is as though everything has been changing...I haven't quite decided if it was for the better, but nevertheless, that is how it is. I've made the decision to profile one of my friends every once in awhile. Today's is my bloggin' buddy lacey.

Lacey~ truly inspirational. crazy. abnormal. call her what you will but she is one of my greatest friends. No matter what, I know that I can tell her anything. Actually, she inspires me. her creativity gives me creativity. Her writing makes me long for her talent, and her "I just don't care" attitude makes me be spunky. The truth is though, she does care. She cares about many things, but I admire her b/c she doesn't waste time on the trivial junk. Those who aren't close to think she is invincible...but i have seen her cry. I have cried with her...lacey has so many sides no one ever sees, but each is inspirational.

10.22.2002

If I could do anything...I would travel. See everything. No limits. Spain sounds nice…or maybe Paris. Oh wait… I could go to Italy and shop. If I could do anything…I would go on a shopping spree with no limit to spend. No limits. If I could do anything...I would become a scholar. Know everything and share my knowledge to the world. No limits. If I could do anything...I would find my true love and fall in love all over again everyday. No limits. If I could do anything, I would spend my life surrounded by those I love. Friends. Family. Doesn't matter, as long as they love me too. No limits. If I could do anything... I would live life to the fullest. I would be able to go back and live each day again until I got it right. No limits. If I could do anything...I would overcome all the fears a normal human has. Fear is weakness. No limits. If I could do anything...I would win the lottery. That way, I would never have to work, but could do anything. No limits. People say that money doesn't make happiness, but I disagree...if I had tons of money, I would be happy. Of course, I would have to have the friends I do now, but most of the time the rich aren't happy because they are like scrooge. How did I get to talking about the rich? Basically, if I could do anything, I would live each day to its' capacity. Fun. Love. Life. There are so many things I want to do in life. I couldn't just pick one. I want to be a lover, a fighter, a conformist, unique, hated and loved by all.

*if you are wondering why I wrote this....it is a journal entry for creative writing and I am just more creative on the computer.

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