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2.23.2004
I can't get him off my mind. Ever since the night, he is constantly there. Smiling, laughing, talking. I always say that I want what I can't have, and this case is the same. I can't have him for so many reasons...age, friends, availability. But, he is always there and my body longs for a mulligan. I close my eyes and the movements and words all flood back to me...........
Why are guys so unattainable? The ones I want, I can't have. The ones who want me, I don't want, and the one who I want and wants me only comes to town every other weekend. At least my mom says he wants me and I want him too, at least at the moment. Why can't I just make up my mind? For me, there is always something wrong with each one: age, hair, personality, humor. Maybe I am just looking too hard, looking for a guy that with one touch can make my heart flutter. A guy who doesn't care about my physical appearance, yet one I am attracted to. I would compare love to the Holy Grail...so many have searched for it, but so far they have only found decoys and what they think it is.
Care Bear @ 4:04 PM | comment
cmharrison@mckendree.edu
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