10.07.2003

Formal writing holds no appeal for me. At least not after the day I had. I got more sleep last night than I had in a while, but for some reason it all caught up with me today...This morning I blow-dried my hair with my eyes shut and barely stayed up through lunch. Then the hour that I had been dreading came....fifth....Basically, this test i took in there kicked my ass, and the worst part about it is the fact that the second half is tomorrow. I want to sleep so badly, but I know I have to study and get this paper planned out.

A green glaze over a shining moon.
The world reflects its views.
Spreading light on new issues.
Providing insight on old.
All is changed by the light of the moon.
Night brings out the truth,
For people aren't afraid of the dark.
Nothing stays hidden in the shadows.
Love is found and lost.
Like two starry lovers under a romantic moon.
My heart soars.
My sould yearns...longing...
For the day of a perfect night.

10.05.2003

The "X"s marked the spot. This is where I want to be...not exactly, but I long to be among them...walking to and fro. As I stared across the open firld, the diverse students looked like nothing more than a pakc of ants, oblivious to each other yet a family. The cold air slapped against my skin, but did I care? negatvie. I was entranced by the lives of all these people. Each had their own life; their own ideas; their own minds...Ever since my 1st visit to the U of I, I've wanted to go here...each time I come back , the feeling is sparked again. Why don't I go there then" Mostly fear...a little financial...In a spiteful voice, my mom said, " I know you are going there so don't even attempt to hide it." The thing is...I know what I feel, but i don't know if it is what I want. College. I look at these people, some who are freshman, others who are TAs, and I wonder how they cope. I can't do it. I thought of myself asa strong person with a good head that was focused. Now, I cant even make an important decision. I want a school with a name with small class sizes. so basically, i'm going to Neverland University. I finally decided what I want to do with my life...now all I need is a starting point.

A TRIP TO THE U of I

**Their hair was white, thick and shoulder length. I turned to LAcey and point4d out the girls hair. She looks then turns to me and says with a puzzled look..."That's a guy." Ooops!

**Do people look in the mirror when they get dressed?

**That is so rude...her phone just rang. Did she hurry to turn it off? no. Did she hit the ignore button? no. Instead, she answered it. right in the middle of the speaker. In the middle of 900 people. She's as stupid and offensive as that giant white flower in her hair.

**Pete Yorn...Pete Yorn...Pete Yorn. He's everywhere! Ahhh!

**Mint hot chocolate; chocolate powder, whip cream... the warming of the soul by each sip.

**The lines define an age. Smooth and course running together...blending if you will. The refracting surface sparks my interest. A story is told, and the world goes on.

**Chapstick & breathmints...$5.00
Attending a kissing seminar...$3.00
The actual first kiss...priceless.

ME in a BOWL

In this tiny space, I am suppose to tell you about myself; I can't, for you wouldn't even begin to understand the simple complexity of my life.

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