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8.24.2002 Pete8425 (12:20:44 PM): can you do me a favor
In a phrase, it was a very WET night. Not in the sense you are thinking, you perverts... In a pitiful attempt at revenge, bobby and seth broke out the water balloons. Actually, the revenge was suppose to be on jess and me, but jess was called home and carrie was left all by herself. After a while, I thought they had forgotten about the whole revenge thing and i was just standing there talking to bobby when i notice he is smiling over my head. Immediately, I jump out of the way, but apparently i wasn't to quick because seth had succeeded in drenching my back. I complained and whined but overall figured i got off easy. Until around 10:30 (after i had dried from the first one), i see seth coming at me with a water balloon. I attempted to flee and did a damn good job of it until a group of girls stood in my way. In all honesty, I did actually sprint around the square with seth at my heels. Adam the Brave tried to stand in the way of the balloon and defend me, but Matt the Terrible snatched him away and I was left defenseless. The first balloon only got my back, but this one succeeded in nailing the entire front. My shirt was sticking and my shoes were wet, but i was happy. Seth gave me a hug and i got him all wet. Tomorrow, Jessica gets hers. Most likely however, i will end up getting it again. Doesn't bother me really...
8.22.2002 for once...i am speechless. Not really speechless, I just don't know how to put this into words...
I may disagree with what you have to say, but I shall defend, to the death, your right to say it.
8.21.2002 While walking down the hall in the morning with the usual line of people on either side, I began to feel unusual about something. It wasn't the walk that made me feel odd...it was just the fact that everyone was looking at me with a weird look. As if i am not self-concious enough as it is, the excess attention got the questions rolling: "do i look ok?" "is my hair frizzy?" Well, I had put it in the back of my mind until Chelsea Kesterson came into first hour and was like, "Carrie, OMG! I didn't even recognize you this morning. Everyone in the hallway was asking who you were and I didn't know until i just walked in....You've changed so much!" I just don't get it. I don't think i have changed that much, but then Seth asked jessica if something was wrong with me b/c i seemed different. So, I decided to take a poll: vote by sending me and email at zwingly@bolt.com
Jealousy is an evil thing. i feel bad that i am, and i know there is nothing to be jealous of. He has already told me that nothing is or will go on. It is really ironic. For some reason though, I think the start of school is going to put a damper on a very important relationship. Just because I am going to be very busy, and won't have time. I got asked so many times about my relationship with him today that i don't even want to talk about it. It isn't the fact that i was asked that bothered me...instead, it is the fact that i can't answer. A few people said we were dating, but that can't be it, b/c techniquely we've never had a date. it is just so confusing b/c i want to be able to flatly state our relationship, but then again i am scared to have it for fear that it might ruin what we have now.
Already the tradition has begun....i told my dad to wake me up at 15 till 7, but NO...he comes prancing in at 6:25 to wake me up. Understandably, the 20 minutes of extra sleep wouldn't help that much, but maybe it could of had an effect. As I was reading everyones end-of-the-summer blogs, I realize that mine was soooo selfish b/c it only dealt with me. So, instead of writing another one, I think you should just read Aaron's and Lacey's.
8.20.2002 Tomorrow begins another year of early days and early nights. I'm not really looking forward to school like i have in past years. Maybe that is because I never truly enjoyed summer. Of course, past summers had their highlights, but this time, the entire summer was full of memories. Some of those memories bad, but because of the bad memories, the wonderful ones are made to be even better. It feels odd that all the summer is over. It feels as though it would never end. With the end of the summer, relationships will end and new ones will begin. I need to think about how I want this year to go. I can continue to have fun, or I can focus on school. Maybe this year will be spent finding a happy medium. All my life i have been known as the "smart" girl to my peers as well as teachers. Yet, it is very obvious that I have changed this summer. Does a new school year mean a new image, or does it mean going back to the way things were before? So many revelations have taken place this summer. Feelings were shared, hurt, and loss. Some feelings never were lost just put at the back of the mind because of fear. Various friends are leaving for college. It is hard to think of me having friends who will be starting their freshman and sophomore years in college. They have taught me a lot of what I know. To one special person, who is going to be a freshman in college, I give these words of advice: Never settle for less, b/c you are just as wonderful as anyone else. Thank you for finally sharing with me. So...overall, it was a great time, the summer of 2002. Most importantly, however, it will lead to even more wonderful times and memories. Memories we will never forget.
8.18.2002 I have had a lot to say in the last two days, but I kept it to myself. There are so many things that I am thinking about but how to say them all is the true quest. Right now, I am blank on where to begin...maybe tonight will bring the words.
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